Ah yes, I am the last 20something to post, gah. Not the best foot to start off on, but I suppose that’s part of the 20something saga…..starting on one foot the wrong way and then starting over, on the other foot (foot could be literal or hypothetically speaking) the “right way.” I have a million “hypothetical feet,” but it hasn’t stopped me from continuing to learn and make my “mistakes” whatever that means to you…..so here’s a little background about me:

Some of you may know me from Chelsea Talks Smack I created the blog name not purely for smack talking purposes but simply so I could say whatever I wanted, whenever I wanted, about WHATEVER I wanted. I’ve never been anonymous and luckily my family and work place allow me to be me; messy, inappropriate, confused, and whatever else you could name a 20something.

So who am I? I grew up in Colorado and have done things unconventionally from the beginning. Growing up I knew I wanted to be in the entertainment industry; singer, actress, whatever I could do to ham it up and use my ridiculous ambition and talent. I homeschooled near the end of high school and moved to Los Angeles to pursue the “BIG DREAM.” When my friends were busy going to prom, I was busy trying to pay rent and buy toilet paper. From there I did MANY MANY THINGS: I was a “stand in” for random celebrities, literally you STAND IN for them, I sang backup, worked as a personal assistant, a nanny, etc. and attended Musicians Institute in Hollywood. ……but it doesn’t stop there……..

After three years in Los Angeles I decided to change it up and head to New York where I interned for Bust Magazine and started freelancing online. Eventually with some twists of fate that I couldn’t have predicted I covered a few events interviewing celebrities for a major magazine….and through this all I realized……OH GOD. I DO NOT. WANT. TO. DO THIS. AT ALL. I didn’t want to be behind the scenes, I didn’t want to edit ANYTHING, EVER, I didn’t want to live by deadlines….I wanted to continue being the free spirited artist that I was made to be…..

WHICH BRINGS ME HERE.

In exactly 6 days I am going to Europe, by myself, for two months. On a somewhat irrational “whim” I bought a ticket to London to get “reinspired.” I figure, LUCKILY, I’m working from “home” or “the internet” so I may as well do that while I’m in Paris eating a croissant and deciding whether or not I want to have a one night stand with a handsome French man….

Here’s what I’ve learned so far:

Everything I’ve done, someone would have told me NOT TO DO IT…..but I did it anyway.

There is a reason we are all made in different shapes, colors, sizes, and into different homes with different minds and different dreams…..whatever it is that is DIFFERENT about you, is PERFECT for YOU. Rather than pushing away your strange dreams or quirks, follow them.

If he doesn’t love you…..someone else will, but you have to let him go in order to find them. Whether or not this is a 20something thing or not, I’m not sure. The past 5 years I have been in love with the same person, on and off of course, because….that’s part of being 20something. I’ve finally realized…..the way I was letting us treat each other was never going to benefit either of us. The only way to move on, is to actually MOVE ON.

Don’t be afraid to question the “supposed to do’s” After all, who says?

The twenties are meant to be a time to fall. To try EVERYTHING in order to find that “one thing.” What if you don’t? Then embrace that maybe you aren’t supposed to and instead enjoy the journey of where you are, RIGHT NOW. Worrying about the details sometimes gets in the way, hating your body only makes whatever it you hate worse, it’s okay to sometimes want to call “Mommy” or “Daddy” no matter how old you are…..

We’re all busy trying to “figure it out” and SOMETIMES…..we just have to roll with it. Which is what I’m planning on doing while I’m in Europe, where I’m sure many of the 20something questions will come up and hopefully, you’re all reading to help me/you/us “figure it out.”

The 20somethings to me is an adventure and I’m absolutely up for even the rockiest ones.

CHEERS

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